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Thursday, July 01, 2004

SuM WhErE I BeLoNg

I wanna heal, I wanna feel,
what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of all the pain I felt so
I wanna heal, I wanna feel,
like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

hey everyone! well not much has been goin on. Work is ok i guess lol. Im just a lil tired haha.
Still on my parents shit list but i dunno.... i mite be sleeping over my aunts house tomorrow nite (complementary of my mothers plans) yay. my nite off ... not that i dont love my family but .. its my nite off i wanted to go out! and ill see them all Saturday. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!

Posted at 02:22 pm by addicted2u
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Tuesday, June 29, 2004

TaKe Me AwAy

Take me away
Take me far away from here
I will run with you
Don't be afraid
Navigate and I will steer into the sun
We will run

heyall!!! DUDE SO I WENT TO NYC TODAY WITH MANDA AND KEL! haha

we took the train up and chilled. Well on the train we looked at the confirmation sheet for TRL and well.. i needed an ID. lol thanx for tellin me guys! cuz i didnt bring my lisence or anything with me. Then we saw that you cant wear white.. and well kel had a white shirt on lol. Could this get any better?! lol.
Then we got off at Grand Central. And we started to walk over to MTV studios. On the way we stopped at Quicksilver so kel could get another shirt and i just used her blood donating card lol. We stood in line and finally made it in. When we were waiting inside and started talkin to this guy...Quinnmae? lol sutitn like that. And we talked to sum chick and her boyfriend (im assuming lol) They were cool. We were definatly gettin tested on Spider man lol.

FINALY WE GOT IN!! and the show was cool... the studio is sooo tight! it looks so much bigger on TV. lol. So Tobey Maguire was really cool... his eyes are amazing! Kirsten Dunst is cool too! And i met the REAL Peter Parker! hahaha hes really cool tho! haha We also got the Spiderman game for PS2 and the soundtrack!! ooh its sexy! haha. Kel and Manda were on TV and if you go frame by frame lol you can see me! haha.

so we left and went to McDonalds and then to Hersey store. MMMM YUMMMM! hehe. ok so we took the 804 home and i wuz mucho tired so i just chilled and passed out a lil bit lol.

DUDE today was an awesome day!!

Posted at 02:03 pm by addicted2u
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Monday, June 28, 2004

YoU aNd I BoTh

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others only read of
Others only dream of the love,
oh the love that I loved

hey everyone ...

so not much today goin on. Woke up and got bitched at by my mom cuz im on her shit list lol. apparently im never around anymore....I WORK NITES BUDDY! and u SLEEP ALLL DAY!! wtf do u want me to do?? sorry ma .. i cant plse everyone

so i slept a lil bit and then Victor called me and i talked to him and his friend Ant (im assuming his name is anthony but they gotta keep it gangsta lol ) for a lil bit. we talked and i think we are gunna try to chill one day this summer wit Shakilah. fun times :)

so then manda came by and i heard about her mucho exciting day :) YAY! hehe. im so excited fo ya babye ! keep it gangsta!! love u babe!!! congrats cuz u deserve it and dont worry... im always right .. remember that haha.

.....later.......

Posted at 08:30 pm by addicted2u
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Sunday, June 27, 2004

LiFe

Life is like a banana.... just don't slip on the peel.

I talked to Ringo today.. i snuck the car out and went to talk to him. We had a long chat and he really never gave me a reason to not believe him... but im gunna wait till Karen or the other gurl gets me proof becuz the only thing is that they deleted the text messages... personally i wouldnt delete suttin like that ... so when i get proof from them.. then ill decide wut to do... i know this is probably really stupid but i hate it when ppl listen to other ppl so i cant follow that with out proof.

ok well today i talked to Ish about the fun lil rumor. Apparently.. he told Ben that it wuz sumone in mens .. NOT ME but the other gurl.. and Ben thought it wuz me becuz JOEL feels the need to open his mouth about him seeing us kiss like its a friggin big deal!! (by the way .. we kissed like 6 months ago before i worked there) wutever... im just sick of stuff like this.

i came home and passed out!

and i have no clue wut happened with the car accident but i really hope everyones ok!! i love uguys

Posted at 10:39 am by addicted2u
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Friday, June 25, 2004

WoRkIe

ok kids.... im still trying to get my AIM back to normal... all of my away messages were deleted :( UGH! so just give me like a week or 2 just to get on track cuz work is a killer lol

well lets recap!

this morning i went to put my $200 check in the bank. and i went to Walmart to look for stuff. Everything wuz cool... then ... when i came home i called Manda.... and wellll here goes....

i havent been working at Burlington for 3 weeks and well.. there is a rumor about me! how much fun is that?! lol. well i was just a little (sarcasim) pissed off becuz i definatly have more than just a job to worry about. Mandas mom heard the rumor and i really dont need her thinking im a dirty lil whore (WHICH IM NOT)
this is so stupid... this is a work place! NOT HIGH SCHOOOOLL!! ugh... people are so damn stupid.

after i bribed Manda to take me to the dinner for food cuz i wuz mucho hungry. Laurie gave us the update on the guy.... apparently he didnt get the hotel hint lol. ..... men....

Posted at 10:22 am by addicted2u
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Thursday, June 24, 2004

DrIvInG

wellll yesterday wuz mucho interesante....

MY LAST FINAL! MATH SUX!! HAHAH. Me, Manda, Pete and Chris went to IHOP (I HAVE OBEST PENIS lol) i got home and my mom took me to DMV and i got my lisence ( the picture one lol). my mom went to her friends house so i drove around haha. Kel came over after work and i signed her year book.

LATER

Me and Manda wanted to go out that nite. So she got directions to this resterant in WALLINGFORD! and i was drving tontie haha. "okay mom im goin to the carnival" lol. So less than 10 hours of havin my lisence i was on the highway, merrit and in a town in east bubble fuck! haha. dude we are such assholes! lol but we made it after gettin lost in wallingford. it was a really cute town. Maybe we will go back and be bigger assholes lol. So we came back and we drove around pretty much. We stoped to put gas in my moms car cuz um... we used like 1/2 a tank lol. We saw Boc at the gas station and she looks super sexy! haha. SO we went to pick up Matt and we drove to all the beaches lol. It was cool tho cuz i didnt see one stop sign (lol) I dropped Manda off home and Me and Matt stoped at 7-11. Ringo wuz there and so wer a bunch of other ppl. we talked for about 2 seconds cuz i hadda go!

well there is always an asshole story to tell the 1st day u get ur lisence. Thank god we didnt get hurt or pulled over lol. My mom really does have a rite to have a heartattack lol.... but shell never find out *knocks on wood* lol. dude we are CRAZAYYYYEE! i hope my kids are just like me !

Posted at 01:53 pm by addicted2u
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Wednesday, June 23, 2004

HuMpItY

Today is Typewriter Day. In honor of the first patent on the typewriter ... wait, what's a typewriter? Is that anything like a keyboard? Okay, now we're talking. Using the letters K-E-Y-B-O-A-R-D tell us something about your blog or your blogging habits.

K- keeps being stupid
E- Everyone thinks im a crazy gurl
Y- Yeah .. i got my lisence!
B- Boreds really easily at work
O- Only gets humped by immies
A- Anxious
R- Regrets nothing
D- Done a lot of stupid stuff

This week's hump -- an even dozen of "I say ___, you think ___"

01. stroke...........me ;)
02. sketch..........drawings
03. poke.............my stomach
04. doh...............homer simpson
05. tongue..........kiss
06. post..............office
07. twirl...............around
08. fore................head
09. cup...............drinks!
10. curly..............OOOOOOOOOOOOKLAHOMA
11. swim.............pool
12. snooze..........sleep

Posted at 10:30 am by addicted2u
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Tuesday, June 22, 2004

Im BaCk!

Hey there everyone! i finally got my computer back ! WHOOO HOO!!! dude this rocks! haha ok well.. quick update..
*Me and Ringo are okay .. i guess lol. everything beens goin good.
*school is almost over! (one more final to do!)
*Work has been pretty cool... cant complain. :)
*Kel graduated today... CONGRATS!
*I DEFINATLY PASSED MY LISENCE TEST TODAY!! OH HELL YEAH!! I ROCK! I KNOW IT! lol

Kelsey sent me this lil thingy so i guess ill do it for my entry back into the blogworld lol

Time started: 8:29pm
1. FIRST NAME: Melissa
2. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? ummm no.. im not cool enouch lol
3. DO YOU WISH ON STARS? of course :)
4. WHICH FINGER IS YOUR FAVORITE? MIDDLE BABY! haha
5. WHEN DID YOU CRY LAST? honestly... last week or the week before
6. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? eh.. it has its moments lol
7. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE LUNCH MEAT? mortadella (yes it is italian lol)
8.. ANY BAD HABITS? oh yeah...swear to much, talk to much, talk to less, lol the list goes on
9. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING MOMENT? haha not a lot... probably in PA with manda and her family.. "cracker peppy relish!?" hahah
10. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS
WITH YOU? yeah

11. ARE YOU A DAREDEVIL? yup! thanx to Manda!
12. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL? yes
13. DO LOOKS MATTER? nope.. not to me, but to soicety, yes
14. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER? listen to music, walk, go on my roof
15. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME? Mandas house!
16. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY? nope not at all. to many people are out to screw u over
17. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVOURITE TOY AS A CHILD? the dirt lol
18. WHAT CLASS IN SCHOOL DO YOU THINK IS TOTALLY
USELESS? definatly spanish.. its cool speakin 2 languages.. but this is america buddy
19. DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL? ummm yeah.. ur in it rite now!
20. DO YOU USE SARCASM? shit yeah
21. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT? oh yeah! wif Manda :)
22. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL? someone who can prove me wrong
23. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES? Mel, Mehlesa (thanx to rod)
24. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? oh hell yeah!!!!!!!
25. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? wuts the point to that?
26. DO YOU THINK THAT YOU ARE STRONG? physically no, mentally yes
27. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE ICE CREAM FLAVOUR? cherry garcia ooh man i love Mandas Dads icecream! lol
28. SHOE SIZE? dude fuck shoes!! lol i think 8... or 8.5 my foot shrank man
29. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVOURITE COLOURS? black and blue
30. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE? none ...yet lol
31. WHO DO YOU MISS MOST RIGHT NOW? my friends

32. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE YOU SENT THIS TO, TO SEND IT
BACK? umm who ever reads this can do wut they plse haha .. i dont care
33. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Bon Jovi- its my life
34. LAST THING YOU ATE? blueberry waffles
35. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Manda, my boyfriend hahah
36. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? eyes or smile
37. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? kels a cool chicka
38. HOW ARE YOU TODAY? tired, happy, excited, smily
39. FAVOURITE DRINK? orange juice
40. FAVOURITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? smirinoff
41. FAVOURITE SPORTS? BASEBALL!
42. HAIR COLOUR? brown
43. EYE COLOUR? brown
44. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? nope
45. SIBLINGS? 1 sister, 1 brother
46. FAVOURITE MONTH? May
47 FAVOURITE FOOD? pasta
48. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? The day after tomorrow (hahaha bootleg!)
49. FAVOURITE DAY OF THE YEAR? July 4th
50. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? yes, but ill tell them that i want they sexy body lol
51. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDING? SCARY! but happy endings are nice too
52. SUMMER OR WINTER? winter ... or can i choose fall?
53. HUGS OR KISSES? kisses :)
54. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS? relationships
55. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? yo momma lol
56. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? fity cent.. hes prolly to busy gettin shot at
57. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? The Witching Hour by Anne Rice
58. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? ummm i dont use one
59. FAVOURITE BOARD GAMES? Aladdin game!
60. FAVOURITE SMELLS? cookies
61. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP? did i wake up in time lol
Time finished 8:50.....haha im watching Method Man and Red man (new show! haha)

Posted at 08:56 pm by addicted2u
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Monday, June 14, 2004

UpDaTe

so children....

my comp is still down.

I have no clue wut the deal is with me and Ringo but sum shits been goin on and i miss and i really did fall in love with him. I just hope that things will work out becuz he means the world to me. I never ment to like him this much but stuff pops up on u when ur trying to hold back. I really do hope that we work things out becuz i miss him. Not just physixal but just being with him. He makes me so happy. Even tho we arent talkin a lot now..... just seeing him makes me a lil bit happier. Im sorry for everything and hopefully soon we can work it out or figure out something becuz im not gunna let you do with out a wrold war. U mean tooooo much to me

School sux and im not really gettin anything done. Finals start friday and i really dont have time too study.

Work is cool... gazis an asshole. Ilir is in ALbania. Cliff is a redneck lol.
i havent slept in like a week. Been late to school cuz im an asshole.

gotta go cuz the pregnant lady is commminnnn!! lol

Posted at 12:40 pm by addicted2u
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Thursday, June 03, 2004

ThE CoMp

Hey children! listen!!! my computer is down so im in skool rite now trying to let yall know! :)

quick update:

*my family isnt talkin to me lol

*school sux
*last weekend ruled

*driving in the rain is hard
*highways are scary lol

love ya guys and hopefully my comp will work aain soon :)

Posted at 08:23 am by addicted2u
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